Like a child, I cry again

School started for real today and I slept at 12 yesterday (technically, it was today) and it was a very bad decision later in the afternoon bc I fell asleep for one hour after watching just one episode of 西游记 lol life sucks. But I was amazed at myself for having such great energy this morning lol I literally sprung out of bed I'm not even kidding. 

School was boring bc we just spent 3 hours in the hall and tower hall listening to crap. I almost fell asleep I swear I was trying so hard to keep myself awake so I played with my wallet and Charis was sneezing her life away beside me I wanted to stuff corks up her nostrils. 

Life is bad now that my classroom is on the fifth level furthest away from the canteen but I can't do anything about it so I just have to suck it up and live on. And I found out that my form was lsk lol excuse me while I jump off a cliff I never thought I would have to see her again after last year but no she had to upgrade herself to be our form. 

Life sucks but what can I do. 

Nothing.

Ok.

Anyway tomorrow is some leadership camp thingy I hope it's fun bc I don't want to waste 9 hours in school doing nothing. 

Going to attempt to read 西游记 again bc I gave up on the show. But I'm going to flunk the test anyway what's the use of trying. I hope I can actually understand and not just read the words and nothing goes inside my brain bc that's what happened to me for the past 152 pages otl wish me luck I need it. 

And toondoo is being a bitch I can't access the website and print my comics what do you want me to do now huh huh huh.

Like a habit, I think of yesterday

Although I tell myself several 

times that it’s wasted time

It’s still awkward for me that you’re not here

So I try to hold onto you but

Yesterday is fading away

Your face becomes clearer

You, who is filled with tears, 

are turning away from me

So what should I do? No no

My footsteps become quicker

All day, I look for you

Everything is the same as yesterday, 

everything is the same

But why are you the only one who is different?

The day I long for, 

the passed by yesterday

You are getting farther away from me

(Now the memories of you and I are all) 

yesterday oh yesterday

Now it won’t ever 

come again, yesterday

Please don’t get any farther away

(Now the memories of you and I are all) 

yesterday but you already erased it all

Yesterday, you get farther away

The more I go, the more afraid I get – 

I don’t know what to do 

and I break down

Like a child, I cry again

My world that turned so brightly 

has now stopped in place after you left

The image of you will not budge, 

it cannot be forgotten

The memories are leaving me

All day, I stand here waiting for you

All you need to do is come, 

I will throw everything away

Where are you?

The day I long for, 

the passed by yesterday

You are getting farther away from me

(Now the memories of you and I are all) 

yesterday oh yesterday

Now it won’t ever 

come again, yesterday

Please don’t get any farther away

(Now the memories of you and I are all) 

yesterday but you already erased it all

Time passes too fast so you grow 

farther away from me again

Memories are forgotten way too easily

To you, it’s just the end 

of a passing by day

To me, it’s the start of a 

pain that I cannot handle

The day I long for, 

the passed by yesterday

You are getting farther away from me

Now the memories 

of you and I are all

yesterday oh yesterday

Now it won’t ever 

come again, yesterday

Please don’t get any farther away

Now the memories

of you and I are all

yesterday but you already erased it all

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